It's Kind of Like Getting Married... Again

This morning I was telling my friend Andrea how the next 7 weeks might never pass. I have trouble concentrating at work, I am tired and anxious, and all I think about is the baby. I know my life is about to change drastically and all I can really do is wait for it. She said, "It sounds like a wedding!" and she's right, it does and it's not that different (at this stage).

For the second time in two and a half years, I am about to make a major, forever-life-altering change. The first was getting married. And that was a big change! I was so excited it was all I could do to sit in my chair at work from 8-5 every day. I couldn't imagine what it would be like to announce myself as "Sarah Szilagyi," rather than as the "Sarah Wuerth" I had been for 30 years. I couldn't wait for friends and family to visit, and to dance the night away with my soon to be husband... and then to go on a honeymoon on top of it all!

Now, I can't imagine announcing myself as someone's mom. Having another person depend on me for everything. I imagine myself walking the stroller around the neighborhood, into stores, and waking up multiple times every night to tend to the little munchkin. I am alternately scared shitless and elated beyond my own wildest dreams. I honestly thought I might never want to be a mom, so being this excited is kind of crazy and of course lucky-- being that it's happening regardless.

I don't know what motherhood will bring. But I simply cannot wait to meet the little baby that is poking its way out of my hip as I type. Suffice to say I also cannot wait to have that poking stop and to marvel at my beautiful baby as I hold a glass of wine.